Lost Thought

He's bringing back a lost thought. I didn't want it to come again.

I’ve been under an illusion that I can control what I feel. I’ve been under an illusion that I can control a lot of things.

He’s pulling back my fingers because I see Him better when my hands are off. He’s making me realize I want to be alive more than I want to feel safe.

Maybe this is what growing up is like or maybe I’m just a restless kid.

But I got back a lost thought, a lost ache that never really left. It's like missing someone and not knowing why. The heavier it sits the more I'm pressed into Jesus. I'm overwhelmed by this but He's not, I'm not in control but He is.

There's a masked cry for another world that lives in everyone.

"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."

Ecclesiastes 3:11